How Many Lines Did I See?

[img align=right]http://i73.photobucket.com/albums/i234/halos_glow/Blog/EnoughAndMoreToSpare_FredrickMorgan.jpg[/img]It seems like everyone I know these days is pregnant. Yep, everyone is seeing two lines – except me and I still just see one. No June-bug for us. We already have a July baby, so maybe the next one will be an August 07 baby. (It is our joke that we will have each month of the year covered – so far we have: July-Josiah; September-me; October-Chloe; November-Chad; December-Fisher; March-Grant – 6 down and 6 to go – LOL).

Yes, those of you who know me IRL know that I am ‘baby crazy’. I want as many sweet blessings as the Lord chooses to give me!

I didn’t always feel this way! In fact, for a looong time, Chloe was an only child – on purpose. Chad and I only wanted one child so that we could give her everything and not have to share our love.

Hahahahahaha. I laugh about that now. What I didn’t realize back then is that you don’t share your love when you have more kids – your love multiplies and in fact, you are the receiver of MORE love!

Most people who know us think that we are either crazy or insane (we claim both – lol) but a few actually share our same conviction. So what exactly is our conviction about wanting so many babies? Well, it is pretty simple. We simply allow the Lord to control the size of our family. We don’t use any kind of man’s method’s of birth control but use the One divine method to control our births.

We simply made the decision that that if we are supposed to give our everything to the Lord and trust Him completely, then that includes our fertility too.

Since the Lord has changed my heart on this issue, my eyes open more each day to the way the world views children verses the way that the Lord views children. The Lord views them has a blessing and a heritage but the world views children as a burden and a hindrance. The Lord Jesus loved children and wanted them around but the world thinks that children get in the way of life and dispose of them through abortion.

I believe that the greatest ministry that I have is my children. My children will touch the lives of people that I will never meet. If I am raising an Army for the Lord, the impact that future generations of our family can make could be tremendous! It is not just about us – in the here and now – but it is about a future that our great-great grandchildren could make a difference in – a difference for the salvation of souls in these distant days.

With all of that being said, I do realize that the Lord may choose to limit our family size to the three living children that we currently have. If this is the Lords will for our family, then I am okay with this too but my heart is open to more children if the Lord sends them to us (whether they are children from my womb or children of my heart through adoption).

You may also think that I must be one of the lucky ones who have perfect pregnancies and births. Well, I dont believe in luck but the Lord has chosen to give me quite eventful pregnancies and births.

Chloe, my first, was as textbook as it gets. I had a perfect pregnancy and delivery with zero problems. Grant, my second, was a perfect pregnancy and the delivery was perfect at 37 weeks except for the fact that he was stillborn (we believe that his death was due to a cord accident but it is officially listed as unknown). Fisher, my third, was my hardest. I was fearful of another stillbirth but was not prepared for what I would face with him. At about 34/35 weeks, my liver shut down and I developed Cholestaisis which caused me to became septic. This was discovered at 36 weeks and I HAD to deliver the next day or my body would have ended up poisoning him and causing another stillbirth. After being induced the next morning, I ended up having a HUGE abruption and then had an emergency c-section. To condense the story, Fisher ended up with a 10 day stay in the NICU because of a collapsed lung and pneumonia. Josiah, my fourth, was another c-section (because I had a J-incision with Fisher, my doctor would not allow me to VBAC). He arrived at 37 weeks and I had developed HEELP (a form of toxemia that includes liver problems my liver is normal when I am not pregnant).

With my history, I catch a lot of grief about my desire to have more children. I know all of the risks of having more children but my faith is not in my own body, my faith is not in the science of medicine, my faith is in the Creator of Life and the Saviour of my soul. I have faith in the Lord, that His will is good and perfect. I am comforted by the fact that the Lord is in total control of my life and my death. He simply will not allow me to pass from this world until He deems it is time and He numbered my days before I was even born. While I am living and breathing, I will be trusting in Him and giving Him control of my life. I can not live for the wants and desires of others; I can only live for the One that matters.

So, what sparked this long post? LOL I was simply going to post a link for some bulk pregnancy tests. LOL my, my how lengthy my posts get sometimes when I feel the need to explain WHY I would buy tests in bulk! Anyway, for those of you who are also quiverfull (which is a common term applied to those who allow the Lord to control their fertility and conception to the Lord) you may be interested in buying tests by the 100. At anotherblessing.com, you can get 100 pregnancy test strips for only $40 (no, I dont get any money for referring anyone but this is just SUCH a deal that I thought it may save some of you some money).

Have a blessed day,
Dana

Print above is called “Enough and More to Spare” by Fredrick Morgan and available at allposters.com

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10 thoughts on “How Many Lines Did I See?

  1. I also see only one line at the moment.

    I also share your conviction to allow God to plan our family. For us this has meant 17 pregnancies resulting in 4 living children. Most of my pregnancies have ended quite late term and not the way that we would have liked .

    We are still the (proud!) parents of all those wonderful blessings and they have enriched our family greatly. Of course our children are very much committed to having all the children that God will give them as they have learnt the value of a child.

    Thank you for sharing your story, Dana.

    In regards to earlier posts from me, sorry about the excess length. Just a short(er) note this time to let you know that the “queen” has had to go out on parade again to encourage the hearts of the people (and the king) here. And again it has worked just so tremendously.

    God Bless,

    Dianne

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  2. Hello Queen Dianne (lol),
    I don’t mind the long comments – I enjoy reading them.

    I totally agree with you about the blessings that are already with our Lord – for me, Grant has made such an impact on my life and is as much a part of our family as the three living children that we have – he is just the ‘forgotten’ member most of the time.

    I am so sorry to hear about all of your losses – I cannot imagine! It is so evident that the Lord has given you the strength you need to face the hard times and that it has deepened your faith and trust in the Lord. What a wonderful testimony. Thank you so much for sharing your heart with me!

    Lord Bless,
    Dana

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  3. I pray that you see double lines soon–it is nice to see someone wanting babies(children) I have to be content with grand kids now but they are twice as nice- (wink)

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  4. It breaks my heart that a lot of the world views children as such a burden. We truly are raising an “army for the Lord” and it’s so rewarding. Unfortunately we’ve even experienced rejection of children in the church.

    Prayers for you to be holding another baby in your arms soon, and on a vacant month. 🙂

    Hugs and prayers,
    Jess

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  5. Hi Dana! I also am of the Quiverfull conviction. I have a 3 1/2 year old daughter, Lily, and a 20 month old son, Stephen. I have been begging the Lord for another child, as I too love the blessings He sends. I pray that He will send you a blessing soon as well.I am adding you as a link to my site; would you mind doing the same with me site? Blessings!
    🙂

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  6. Hi Christine, Thank you for visiting me! I will be happy to list your blog link on my site – your blog is so lovely and full of truth! I look forward to getting to know you!

    Have a blessed day,
    Dana

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  7. Hi Dana,
    I had Toxemia and Pre-e with two of my three children and people always think that I am crazy for not having my tubes tied. 🙂 I love my babies as well. I would like to have a few more God willing. I will pray for you.
    Blessings,
    Amber

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  8. Dana, I could have written this post!!
    I am too of the quiverfull conviction- as of about 3 months ago. I have always loved babies, and have three of them…but only recently realized that I was trying to control the timing of our babies and that God is supposed to be the one in control of that, not me or my husband. We’ve been trying to concieve again too since the day we realized that, and I am hoping to see that double line as well!! The last two months I was wanting a baby so bad that I took 25 pregnancy tests (I also got them from anotherblessing.com lol ) …. The only thing I didn’t like about the tests is that the ghost line will appear after 10 minutes even if you’re not pregnant….it gave me hope that we were pregnant last month and we werent….but if you throw them away within 10 minutes they are accurate. If you’re like me though, you’ll just keep watching them and hoping they turn! 😀
    I really hope that you will get your hearts desire and have a fourth child! Please pray that I will too!

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  9. Hi Amber,
    “and people always think that I am crazy for not having my tubes tied. :)” – I know the feeling but that is just ‘the world’ thinks!

    Hi Bethany,
    WOW – 25 tests – I normally just stick with just one a week (but maybe less now that Josiah is only nursing 2 times a day and certain things are now occuring monthly again, kwim?).

    I have never never seen the ghost line, I actually will take the test – watch for about 10 seconds until the results appear and then toss it. Thank you so much for the heads up on this – I know it must have been such a heartbreak for you to have a false positive!

    *I will be praying for you all that the Lord would bless your family in His timing and that *we* could all remain patient until then.

    Have a blessed day,
    Dana

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  10. We had our family pictures done this morning but I really didn’t like it. I did, however, like this one of the kids, so that is the one we ordered.

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