Tonight, it is late but I just felt like I really needed to blog since it has been awhile.
I am just really tired… not just physcially but also emotionally. The Lord has really been teaching me a lot about dealing with confrontation and being a peacemaker. Well, I guess I just feel like tonight, for all the the steps that I took forward, I was pushed back a lot more.
I am so praying that the Lord would use this situation for His glory but at this point, I just don’t know what else I can do. I really do try so hard to get along with this person (and her husband) but it seems that no matter what I do, they find fault with it.
Have you ever seen a dog that has been abused? It doesn’t look at you, it just want’s to tuck it tail and stay out of view. If it is around the abuser, then it just has this look of anguish… well, that is how I feel – I feel so beat up right now.
I know that this situation is hard for me right now and it is causing me pain that I just cannot express in words on a screen but I also know that God can and will use this for His glory. I trust in Him! Even though I can’t see what will happen next, I trust Him and I know that He will take care of me!
All day today, He has brought Isaiah 41:10 to my mind… and I have been praying it over and over and over…. I really needed that verse tonight and there it was – so fresh on my heart and mind!